Monday, December 6, 2010

Big Love, Big Loss, Big Hurt

I don't know who said this, but this is how I live and will continue to live...

"Better to have loved and to have lost,
than to not have loved at all".

Phone rings at 9:15 ish

"Wonder who that is calling after 9?"
(this can't be good)

(it's my girlfriend, Gina)
"Hi Jan, are you on your computer?"

"No, I'm working on my talk for Wednesday"

"Are you sitting down?"
(uh oh, this can't be good)

"Yes, what's going on?"

"Joan Horner passed away today"

( in Janet-eese, it means "silence")


Gina was completely silent...

I began sobbing uncontrollably..

Gina gave me the rest of the details...she passed peacefully from heart failure,
in lieu of flowers....
the memorial service...
the family asks....

My dear friend Joan,
I will miss you more than I can express.
Thank you for being a Godly Mentor, Model and Friend.

I am so lucky that I got to know her,
work with her,
laugh with her and
love her.

She will be deeply missed, by me and others all over the world.

-another hole in my heart-
more pain
more hurt
more tears

but I Am so very grateful....
and would jump at the opportunity AGAIN
to know this woman...

"Better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all..."

She is with God- beyond a shadow of a doubt-
in His presence
in His arms
in His LOVE

"I am the way and the TRUTH and the LIFE. No one comes to the Father except through me"
John 14:6


  1. My dearest friend,

    How I look forward to meeting Joan some day. I imagine that her heavenly crown will FAR surpass the jewelry she so thoughtfully and beautifully designed here on earth!

    I know you miss her - and I share the sorrow you feel. Friendship multiplies laughter, and lessens misery. We're in this together.

    May God greatly comfort Joan's family at this time - and yet...

    HAPPY HOMECOMING, good and faithful servant!!

  2. Sharon- thank you for your oh, so kind words.

    I loved what you just said about friendship....and I may use it in tomorrow's talk! (jab jab- it will help me look more organized...or at least it will add "something new" to my talk. :-)

    Love you!

  3. This is terrible news, I'm so sorry. It's not a call I ever want to be on the receiving end of.


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